I can't speak English.
I also don't understand English.
Why? You're American.
I'm French.
French. French.
Ah, Miki. Miki?
What's going on? Ah, sorry, sorry.
Final episode: This is a cliff
It seems she's arrived earlier than I thought.
I told her about the key under the rock.
What... geez… Eh, who is she?
Sorry, sorry. She's my fiancee's little sister.
Fiancee!? The same meaning with fiancee in Japanese? Is there any other language?
He's a foreigner? Can you speak English?
Well, at least we can communicate even with broken language.
What.."At least"?, it's marriage we're talking about...
I will talk about that when I'm in Japan next time...
For the time being, since she will become your little sister too,
please get along well, okay. Eh..
Well, I'll cut it. Eh, why cut it?
She will go to Kyoto tomorrow, so let her spend the night there. Bye.
Spend the night!?
Thank you, Yoriko.
We meet again soon.
I'll call you from Kyoto.
Bye. Bye.
[I picked it up. Thank you]
The new year? Eh?
Will you go back to your home? Eh?
What will you do on New Year's eve? Um, maybe, I won't go home.
Don't you think it's better to go home?
I also want to greet your parents.
Hmm....
Koichi. I.... hmm....
What? Um... you know...
Can you wait for a bit? I don't know anymore.
About what? If I still like you.
Eh? Why?
Well, I don't understand it too.
I liked you before, when we separated,
and when I pursued you, I liked you but
Somehow, like if you apply such a power, and stick it to my like feelings.
Stick it? Ah... um.
My mom got ill.
Eh? Your mother got ill? Ah.. um.
Have I told you that she has cancer?
You didn't tell me. Eh, is she okay?
Well, it's cancer, so I don't think she's okay.
She's being treated immediately after it was found,
you know, with anticancer drug.
It seems to be effective. Eh, is that so? Um.
Well, is that okay? Well, I said, it's not okay but
and then...
Like this… there's state like this when you like someone, right? Um.
So, when they are pulling each other to opposite side,
the state will remain like this, right? Um.
But, for example, when this side uses such force...
It becomes like this, right? Yeah, it becomes like that.
Um. So, when you rejected me,
the state remain like this,
but suddenly you came to this side,
so it became disconnected.
Well, I don't understand what you're saying.
but does that mean, because I suddenly come to your place,
it makes you hate me?
There are still other things, but to summarize it, it's like that.
What's with that?
So, what should I do?
Well, but… it's not like I hate you.
I don't like you but I don't hate you. That's the worst thing.
It's enough.
Wait! Koichi!
Do you like another person?
Do you?
Well, I don't know.
Koichi...you were my only window.
By window, it looked like light was shining from outside.
But, right now I'm outside.
I don't really know though.
I will go, but
don't follow me.
Um. Thank you.
Um.. I'm sorry.
Why do you apologize?
Stop it.
About the manga... you do it from the zero state?
It's not zero.
Zero is the condition when you can't draw at all.
But if real mangaka is 100, aren't you just 1 or 2?
That's right. It's near zero.
That's why I gave up before. Is that okay?
I don't know if it's okay,
I think I will live my life for over 40 or 50 years,
That's a lot of time. I guess you're right.
After all, I thought a lot after being told by the aunty in bento shop.
Bento shop? Um.
The aunty in bento shop said,
I still have more than 30 years of my life,
the things that should have been done,
I can do all of it from now.
I guess you're right.
Because of that, I thought to try to draw manga after all.
My father opposed it, and I regretted it but
I think it's about 15 years,
the time that I had lost. Well, I guess.
That's why I want to take back the lost 15 years.
Eh? Are your father strick person?
Um. But even though he opposed it,
I should be still drawing even though I had to hide,
but I didn't have enough courage to did that.
Maybe it's not courage, it's passion.
You didn't have passion? Do I look like someone with passion?
You're not. Right?
But since I started drawing, there's one person that I want to show it first.
The aunty in bento shop.
Eh, the first "but", where it's connected to?
Eh? Well, I mean...
But, I want to show it to the aunty in bento shop. That's what I said.
Eh, don't you think it's better if it's another person?
Like your mother, or someone close with you.
Umm, my mother won't read manga.
I heard you spent time with Tanaka-kun on Christmas.
We just ate mentaiko. He~
Hey, Yoriko-san.
The mothers all over the world, are they mothers? or are they women?
Women, aren't they? Eh? What is this about?
I wonder what mother is.
Are they mother who belong in human clan? Or are they human who belong in mother clan?
Eh... what are you saying?
Will you go home on new year?
How about going home? You haven't met them for long, right?
I wonder if I'm nuisance...
At the end, I guess they want to be alone together.
At least for new year, they want to see you. Even the daughter. Hmm...
This is for you. Eh, what? Something forgotten?
It's not. It's Christmas present. Open it. Um.
Since you want to be a mangaka, I think you lack something.
Waa, beret cap.
After all if you don't have it, you can't be recognized as mangaka.
Ah... um. Thank you.
Eh... it's such expensive thing. Well, it's only 1900 yen.
Eh, is that so? He~ I'm happy.
The beret from beret cap, I wonder what is it. Is that from person named Beret?
If you're not happy, it's okay to say it.
No, no, no… I don't look like it.
But I'm twice happier than it seems.
Well, maybe I'm not happy with the thing itself,
But I'm happy since it's from a friend, because it's after a long time.
I will treasure it. Wear it, okay.
Ah, um. Of course.
Costantly. Constantly?
You want to be a mangaka, right?
Ah, that's right. Somehow I feel like mangaka.
It suits you. You should wear it constantly.
Well, I will go to sleep now. Um.
When are you done with your manga?
I don't know though, I'm aiming for two months.
If you talk about serializing in monthly magazine,
I should have done it in 1 month.
First I will do it double of that amount.
That's awfully fast. Okay. Let me read it someday.
It's not someday. You will read it after the aunty in bento shop.
Yori-chan. What?
I decided to move out.
Eh? Where to?
To Shimanto. Eh, where is Shimanto?
In Kochi, my parents house.
Eh. Eh. Why? You don't have money?
It's not that. I don't have money, though, but that's not the reason.
But, how about Taeko-chan...
Um. I thought I wanted to stay near my daughter,
but I think it's just my stubborness.
Sacrificing myself for my daughter, it's just for my own satisfaction.
It feels like revenge. But, revenge for who?
That's right. I don't know who it's for.
That's why, I need to stop.
I stopped it and back to my hometown.
Why? You don't need to go back.
I've been thinking about that.
But I don't know what's good anymore,
So I decided to do what I wanted to do.
Before I was a mother.
As person, if I don't do what I want to do, it's bad.
Because I was a child before,
I thought there was a part
where she can't be a child.
So let's try to be adult this time.
Can't you do what you want to do here?
I guess so.
Maybe because I want to be by my mother's side.
That's why, when you're done with your manga, send it to me. It's okay even if it's a copy.
Don't go.
Eh? I appreciated your feelings but
No, no, I know already.
It's just my selfishness. Because of my selfishness, my close friend...
Because I always say or do selfish things,
Somehow when I finally made friends
I'm being hated for it.
You're awfully understanding about yourself.
Because I'm already 32. I will change.
Well, you don't have to change. Because I will go faraway. There's no harm involved.
You really will go? Um.
I plan to come home this year, maybe I will go there on new year's eve.
Ah, I remember. This.
From my daughter for Yori-chan.
Good night.
Let's go. Um.
Ah, she's there.
Good bye!
Let's play together again someday!
Are you okay? Yes, I'm okay.
It's good then.
Ah!
What is it?
Sorry. My legs are numb.
If you intend to console me, why don't you do it.
I thought you came to console me, but I waited for a while
and you just sit there idly without doing anything.
Go home, please.
I wondered if it's okay to console you, coming from my position...
But, I think I will choose to console you.
It's okay.
No, really. Um, I think you're really facing forward.
Because you're still drawing manga even in this kind of situation.
I think you're amazing.
I... Yes.
I thought the future is within the range of assumption,
Ah, is that so? When you talk about the future,
what I imagined never going to happen.
But that kind of future, it's made by your memories,
the real future is not made by your memories or experiences.
The real future?
By the real future, it's not the future we're imagining,
it's the real future that will come.
Sakie-san said this,
When I imagined my future, I used the past memories.
I'm standing on the cliff of my memories.
That's why, it's not okay if I don't step out of that cliff.
Out of cliff? Does that mean you're going to die?
Maybe I'd die, but maybe I'd be still alive.
That's why, it's cliff.
Ah, that's why, even at this current cliff,
if I take a step forward, maybe there's foothold at the moment.
I thought the future is always a cliff.
The future is a cliff, is that okay?
That's okay.
I feel I understood something.
I was in a bit of despair, but despair is not needed.
Because I don't know what will happen,
I think there's still hope.
We always use the past memories to guess the future as we please.
I think that's the reason,
we always end up in despair?
Because the future still hasn't come, there's still hope.
I get it.
I don't think you get it at all.
You could tell?
I could.
You start to draw the manga now,
in case you couldn't make it, what will you do?
I will think about it at that time.
When that time comes, and you realize that it's already too late.
Already too late? It's already too late even now.
In a good way.
In a good way?
That's why, if it ends up bad,
please provide me.
Eh?
If it's still bad when I reach age 40, I will try it until I'm 50.
If it's still bad when I reach age 50, I will still do it until I die.
That's why, can you help me with the food expenses?
Eh, eh? Does that mean...? Yes.
Food expenses, the rent, and housework, can you help me with that?
Eh? How about that?
How? Eh... eh?
Ah, hello? It's me.
Ah... um.
Ah, yeah I'm fine.
Um. How about you, okasan?
Ah really? Is that so? Ah... um.
Ah, no, it's not that. Well, you know...
Is it okay if I go home on new year?
Ah, really?
I thought you want to be alone with otousan.
Ah, is that so? Ah... um.
Ah, I see.
Thanks for watching!
-subs by purisu@d-addicts-